The Heiress Death&Tila, My Unasked 4 Thoughts

So a completely ruined party girl finally parties her life off the edge, and suddenly a bunch of people who never even heard of her before care? I look at that girl and I feel so sad for her life. How lost
she must have been to act in such ways.  How selfish and spiraling out of control you must be to risk abandoning your child. It’s a tragedy that happens over and over. People only care because she was an heiress. Well, an heiress supposedly engaged to a bisexual reality dater.

I just did an interview where I was asked about this whole situation. I have been pretty successful lately in avoiding it at all costs. However, I just had to spend 15 minutes on a radio show listening to them analyze everything about the whole thing. I’m pretty educated up now as to what the latest happenings are. Much like Tiger Woods,
I dont delve into people’s personal business. However, seeing how Tila
WANTS this to be everyone’s business, I felt less invasive when opening
my ears. What do I think? Why, let me tell you!

I think that if my husband were to pass away, the very last thing on EARTH I would be doing is blogging or tweeting about it! Maybe ONE small update to thank people for support, but thats it. When my Mom’s BFF recently passed in November, I couldnt even CALL my own FRIENDS (let alone hear my Mom’s voice!) on the phone because I found speech completely impossible. I wasn’t able to say a word to anyone for 4 days straight. After that, I stopped blogging pretty much, as you guys may have noticed, for a while. I, for a time, lost my ability to write anything that seemed to have any meaning. I didn’t tweet for a few weeks anything other than a few words. I have lost a lot of people lately, and I am noticing a pattern of the same behavior of those who lose people who are most dearest to them. They kinda mope about in complete shock, unable to form words without completely breaking down. It’s the look of living dead, breathing, heartbeat, but dead inside.

Do I think Tila held her fiance in the same regard? No, I don’t. The radio personalities read me some of her tweets and I was shocked anyone would exploit such a situation for attention. I couldn’t believe those were her own words, so out of curiousty I goggled it to confirm, and I found it all right there. I remind myself of how mentally sick one has to be in order to risk their lives when they have a baby….and what type of person would be with someone like that. That Casey girl certainly didn’t love herself, so she couldn’t possibly love anyone else…family, friends, lovers, or children. The type of person who would be with someone so lost aint who you bring home to Momma, either.

SO, in short, I basically understand why everyone has been so interested in this thing, now. It’s the worst kind of train wreck. I am at a loss of words when I think that people still flock around her (Tila) and think what she is doing is ok. I hope a lot of mommies are telling their daughters to never be that way. Hell, I used to always say that about my show and blogs, but somehow…I feel a whole lot better now ; )