So, this morning I flip on the news. I fully expect more reports from Iran. Instead, I have to see these two turdburglers on my television because of their divorce. Worse yet. they have BOTH decided to continue with the show THROUGH their divorce! As a child of divorce, I would rather slit my wrists than have my pain broadcasted throughout the country! When my parents started having problems, it was the worst and most confusing time of my life. I have watched friends go through divorce at young ages..5,6,7,8,etc. Each one developed issues they struggled to deal with. It sickens me to think that TLC or the parents of these children would continue to want to make a buck on it.

I know some of you people will come here saying shit like, “Well, for $50-$75,000 an episode, you would do it too!” This is what I have to say to you. You do not know me. You do not know what a tight and closely knit loving family I come from. You do not know my heart or where it stands concerning those I love. If you think I would sell out my mother, brother, grandma, father, husband or future children for a buck, you haven’t a clue who I am.

I hope people stop watching this show completely. I think those who continue to watch as these children go through such a painful and confusing time are no better than the turdburglers who are their parents.

penny for YOUR thoughts?

EDITED NOTE: You guys bitch and moan all you want, I aint coming back to this blog. I am on my rag and this blog has blown my fucking top off with anger.

SoooOOo whats new in the life of me.  I usually say not much but when I
go on radio shows and give interviews I almost feel overwhelmed at the
amount of things i’m doing.  It sounds more overwhelming then it feels
most days. 

I’m working on my clown script.  I really like the character
development that’s happening with it.  I also am getting new ideas daily
on things to write a script on so I’ve been jotting that down.  My
other movie will have a conference call scheduled soon and we will
start rolling on that.  I’ve decided that while I wait on these things
that I’m going to audition for some Indi stuff.  The experience on the
ole resume can’t hurt.  I’m seriously thinking about directing and
producing as well these days.

I was given a weird sign from the Universe on the way to work today. 
For about 3 blocks I drove with orange cones on my side of the road at
each stop sign. Obviously to some it was just the city repainting
lines.  But for me I had to think about stopping and going around these
lines and cones.  I still haven’t deciphered what I think it may have
meant.

This Saturday I have 2 auditions.  Which means tonight I need to get 2
headshots printed off haha.  Nothing like waiting for the last
minutes.  I have the sides and have been going over them and hope that
I come across as prepared.  But there is no way I will memorize them
before tomorrow.  I had a dream about memorizing things last night… 
That just sparked the memory of the dream.  I was going to stand up on
TV and do a commercial and I had to have the lines memorized, there was
also some improv that was going to be included in this commercial.  If
I did well it was going to lead to more gigs.  I wonder what happened…
Haha I say that because I don’t remember.  I’m sure i knocked it outta
the park;)

I spoke to a psychic and she said I need to recapture my drive that I
had 3 years ago.  I’m working on weekly goals and also getting back
that sense of wonder and excitement.  I think I became jaded for
awhile due to people and circumstances.  I’m reclaiming my sense of joy and thrill.  And confidence:)

A couple hours after I decided there was nothing to take photos of in my house, I proved myself wrong and took a bunch of really terribly pretentious up-close photos of
a bunch of ridiculous shit. En-freakin’-joy.